Tolly Pop

Me and Tolly girl have become buds :) She is such a sweet dog but has always just been very hyper.. Lately ive been giving her a lot of one on one time and its been very helpful to the both of us! even tommy has been showing her attention :) shh dont tell him I told you though! Yesterday Tolly got pampered. She got a bath, ears cleaned, nails clipped and painted .. he he! .. a new and improved collar, and a 5 star meal. She hasnt been eating too well since the incident and I fed her yesterday morning before work and when I got home it was still completely full :( So she got some chopped up salami and warm water with chicken bouillon in it poured on top... spoiled?! yep! But thats nothing compared to my mamas pups! Now we just need to work on the hyper-ness! any tips??

Our sweet Ched..

our poor sweet chedder past away Sunday. We miss him so much... Him and Tolly were play wrestling when her bottom jaw got stuck in his collar and they twisted them up so much he couldn't breathe... He was our baby. We got him at 7 weeks and have had him for a year and a half. He became a daddy in November and was just the best dog ever. He had such a fun, unique personality and everyone loved him. I feel like I lost a huge part of my family. We dont have kids yet so we treated our pups like they were our babies. They went with us everywhere and were truly part of our family. We were so attached to him and this has been really hard on us :( We will miss him... We love you Chedder

this is my favorite picture...

Me and my buddy

Ched and one of his babies

he hog tied himself to this log while we were camping :)

see his smile? :)

We miss you buddy... :(

catch up

February is already here and I've got some catching up to do! With such a big family on both sides there is always a birthday! its only the 4th and we've already got 4! so 1st...

Happy Birthday Miss Karsyn!

i can't believe you are already 1 years old :) Happy 13th! Birthday Corey!

Happy 4th! Birthday Reanna!!!

Happy 4th! Birthday Matthew Paul-a Walker :)


We love you all and hope you have a wonderful birthday!!!!

Next, Happy Anniversary to my wonderful in-laws! I don't remember how many years.. i think 37?! But I am so lucky to have such great in-laws! I hope you had a wonderful anniversary! We love you!!

January 4th 2008

That is the day I got sealed to My best Friend... FOREVER! and now its been 2 whole years! can you believe it?! Me either! Tommy is the greatest husband, friend, companion ever! He always makes me smile and laugh.. he treats me better then I couldve ever asked for and he makes me a better person. I am still as crazy for him as I was the day I said we do :) We have this tradition of "dates to remember" by celebrationg them at monti's! So we continued the tradition and went this year too. We also went snowboarding! We used our christmas presents and went up to sunrise after new years! We had so much fun and once again, no broken bones! only sore bums, arms, legs, necks, and every other part possible I didn't even know I had a muscle in! :) We stayed in a very pretty hotel room with a jacuzzi and fireplace (thanks to my friend Nicole!) and had a great anniversary! I love you babes!!!
:)

a little excited for snowboarding?!

at Montis! .. yum!Happy 2 year anniversary thomas!

I just had to put this picture in :) It was on the way to Show Low and no i did not positiong them like that! They are just cute!

christmas eve, christmas, and new years eve!

Christmas is my very favorite time ever! Its a busy busy time, but my favorite! We had mel, gabe and the boys... and RUBY in town! which is always so fun! We had lots of parties between the 2 sides and lots of game night get togethers :) For christmas me and tommy got BIKES! (beach cruisers to be exact!) and snowboarding clothes for the trip we took for our anniversary! (later post!) I have lots of pictures from the fun holidays so beware :)


-We had our first real christmas together as in living in our own house with our own tree and decorations and everything! here are a few pics from the fun of decorating :)

the lights for the tree Tommy picked out .... as you can see, they were bush lights! dork

decorating our tree!

the finished product :)

Christmas Eve consisted of going to my parents and eating delicious potato soup and playing games! (i kicked their butts!!)

Kinsley and Grandma dancing to the christmas music :)

This year for Christmas me and Tommy got bikes and snowboarding clothes! GANGSTAS

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

For New Years Eve this year we first went to Tommys parents house for a Merrill Family reunion. It was so good seeing everyone! We ate yummy hamburgers and steves beans which were delightful! Then we headed over to Kim and Jasons for more games, rockband, headband making, and Martinellis!! While everyone was playing Emma took the liberty of going around and getting everyones close-ups :) proceed with caution!

mom looking fabulous... he he

yum right?!

Mims

yes, i still claim him as my hubby!

pure perfection

and durty curt!

Happy New Year! Hope everyones new years was as great as ours! (yes, tommy purposely rocked the drunk face....)

by the way... I started this post over a week ago but my computer would only cooperate and let me upload like 2 photos a day so it took awhile!

So the last few days have been a rough few for me. For some reason I have felt very lonely and sad for myself. My best friend Holly had her baby. He is adorable and I am so happy for her. But then another friend had her baby.. a sis-in-law is due any day.. and another friend found out what they are having.. and it continues and continues.. I want my baby. I want to be having all the experiences of being pregnant with all my friends. I want to be finding out what Im having in the next couple weeks like i shouldve been. I want that amazing connection you and your spouse get with feeling the baby kick and going to dr appointments and all the other fun things that happen. I have been edgy and grumpy lately and I feel I have taken most of it out on my husband which is the last person who deserves it. Tommy is amazing. He is an amazing person and an even more amazing husband. He brings me home roses almost every week.. he cleans the house.. he does the laundry.. he tells me more in one day how special I am and how much he loves me then some wives hear in a week. I love him so much and can't even remember what my life was like before he was in it. And i dont want to! I feel like in some ways this couldve been a secret blessing becuase I have come to appreciate my husband much more and absolutely LOVE the time I get to spend with just him!! We have so much fun even when were just sitting at home cooking dinner together or watching a movie together or taking our dogs on a walk :) We have a beautiful house, 2 running vehicles, jobs, 2 special pups, wonderful families that are all mostly close.. I have been blessed in so many ways and .sometimes need to sit back and look at them all when im feeling sorry for myself. Thank you for everyone making our trials lately much easier.. our families are amazing

Just a quick post in case everyone hasn't heard, Tommy and I lost the baby. I went in for a d&c yesterday. Thank you everyone for your love, support, and prayers. We love and appreciate all of you.