Looking on the bright side

I wasn't going to write about this but today I read a family friends blog that really touched me and I decided to go ahead. So most of you that read my blog know about the miscarriage we had back in November. It was devastating..it was the hardest thing i've ever been through and it broke my heart. Well on March 8th after what seemed like an eternity of waiting, we found out we were expecting once again. We were so excited, it felt like things were going to start looking up again. Then saturday came. I started having some cramping and bleeding and all the worry came back.

My dr. got me in Monday morning for an ultrasound. He couldn't see anything which led him to 3 options.
A-I was pregnant just not far enough along to see yet.
B-I was miscarrying again.
C-it was ectopic
Well at this point I was obviously devasted once again. 2 of the 3 options were not good news..and the other didn't seem promising since that still didn't explain the bleeding.

So I went and had blood work done to see what my number levels read. They came back low which shows once again, we lost the beginnings of our sweet baby. I was sad, discouraged, angry, and at peace all at once. I had my time and days to cry, to sulk, to take lots of bubble baths and cry some more.. then I decided I'm going to do my best to be happy. To look on the brighter side of things. Maybe that baby would've had a complication, not been able to live a normal life..Maybe this was heavenly fathers way of avoiding a lifetime of trial by giving us this one? So we are moving forward. We are having fun together and loving spending time just us. Our baby will come. Its hard to be patient and sometimes understand, but were trying :)

Easter Pageant

Me and Tommy went to the Easter Pageant last night with our friends Aaron and Laura. Its the same every year but I still get so touched seeing it! It was beautiful! We grilled some burgers from Aj's then headed down to the temple to save seats and eat some delicious DQ!

Me and Laura at the pageant!

And this is what happens when I try to take a picture of me and Tommy...

attempt #1

Attempt #2

Attempt #3 ... :)

I've found a new love....

for SEWING! :) I really have been wanting to learn how to sew for awhile now. So for my birthday back in September Tommy bought me a sewing machine! Then...it sat... and sat...and sat... till NOW! I decided to be crafty :) In our master bedroom we dont have a door on the bathroom, just the "poop closet" as Tommy refers to it... so when Tommy wakes up super early the light shines right in my face while im still snoozing away! So I decided to get some curtains for convenience and cuteness. Well I bought some, and they were about half the door length TOO SHORT! (oops!..) So I decided I was going to get some cute fabric, cut the black ones in half, add the fabric and some cute trim in the middle! Easy enough right? I got out my machine and trusty little manual and went to town! Im quite impressed with how they turned out!!

BEFORE:
AFTER:

k and yes I know everyone and their mom has made curtains before, but this was my very first time sewing ALL BY MYSELF! so humor me :)

And Trigger makes 4.. :)

Well we went against our better judgement and got another pooch! :) Tommy didn't want another male Boxer just becuase that would be too hard. So instead we got a blue Queensland Heeler. His name is Trigger and he is the cutest little thing :) Hes about 9 weeks now and him and Tolly have so much fun together.. yes even considering the size difference! So.. Meet Tommys new buddy Trig!

They like to chew on rawhide sticks together :)